Do You Fear Your Darkness?

What is darkness? What does it really mean to know your darkness?

To put it simply, your darkness is the hidden parts of your being. The trauma shadows that have been disowned, rejected and stored deep within your energetic body. While we often perceive the darkness as negative or evil, it is actually a key part of our human awakening. We all experience traumas throughout our life that cause these shadows to be hidden in our body, like pieces of glass hiding under the rug or in corners of a room that were missed during cleanup.

When we experience some kind of trauma, which is any experience that causes a deep emotional wound that goes unresolved, we unconsciously disconnect a fractal of ourselves in order to be able to move forward from that experience. We don't have the proper tools to emotionally face the immensity of the trauma, so we fracture that piece of our consciousness and hide it away in order to cope. When this happens time and again, our divine light begins to get dimmer, with each shadow that gets stored in the body. This is metaphorical and energetic in nature, and until we learn to go into the body to face these shadows, it will continue building up blockages. Over time, these blocks manifest into mental illness and then physical disease. To heal, we must face the shadows, clear the blocks and reawaken our divine light.

Many of us hold the scars of ancestral traumas as well. The pain of our ancestors that impacted the way they were able to show up in their life. The way society suppressed their expression and the level of authenticity they held. How connected they were to nature and the divine.

Our shadow work can be simple or complex, it depends on how we face it and how resistant we are to what rises within us. Some of us have a greater capacity to sit with our shadows, while others try to escape by any means necessary, like alcohol, drugs, sex or food. Anything can be used as an escapism technique, and when we can observe within ourselves how we are manifesting it, we allow a deeper awareness to take place. Awareness is only the first step though. After we see what's there, and how we are responding to it, we have the opportunity to take action and to integrate changes, or continue the way we've been living. This is where most people get stuck, the integration phase.

Simply seeing what's there is one thing, but choosing to do the work and embody your wholeness, as you integrate the new changes, is a whole other level of spiritual work.

We see spiritual teachers all over the internet today speaking the love and light and all about positive changes and compassion and love, but very few are actually teaching and embodying HOW we get to this higher level of conscious embodiment. Here's one hint...it's not in the mind. And it's not in the upper chakras. It's descending DEEP into the lower chakras, where the shadows are hidden in your energetic body, the chakras of the dense physicality. The new age spiritual movement is doing a lot of bypassing of deep emotional body work. Telling people to just "think positive", don't focus on the "negative", and meditating into the upper chakras and higher realms without grounding work and integration techniques for the darkness that will inevitably rise. Because of this, I am seeing even more escapism in the spiritual world, primarily among men, who are getting stuck in the mind and logical work, and not grounding themselves in their body. They are still avoiding the vulnerability that comes with their shadow work.

You see, I am a believer that we are incarnated as humans in order to LIVE and LOVE and LEARN in human form, but due to the challenges of human existence, people are using spirituality as an escapism in itself. More meditation, more weed, more psychadelics, more positive affirmations, more journaling. When they need to do LESS. They are stuck in all the DOing tasks to try to reach enlightenment, and forget about the energetic and emotional embodiment work that comes with BEing in human form. Stop trying to escape the pain and discomfort, and start walking towards it. The journey and its gifts will transform in powerful ways.

Learn to let go more.

Rest more.

Feel more.

The ascension isn't about going into the crown and the white lights and higher dimensional connections, while that can be beneficial work as well. The work is in the descension, the grounding work, the shadows, the physical embodiment and integration. Stop trying to use the mind in order to escape the mind and overcome your thoughts. That's counterproductive. It's time to come back into the body and FEEL. Ground, awaken, embody and transform yourself.

Stay tuned for my workshops in the making that will walk you through these steps of HOW to work into the body and embody your authentic expression.

Jessica Olson

Wildly AwakenedMotherhood